So... some things have been happening that I wanted to post about.

Three weeks ago I gave a leave of absence to work because I couldn't deal with what was going on in my body and the stress of work at the same time. While I was on my leave, I actually considered quitting my current job and getting a new one. But I decided that getting a new job would be way more stressful then my current one. It would just be more time and energy that I just don't have right now.

The good thing about my leave was that the energy I did have went to my home made cooking, and taking care of my home. But I think being at home alone did kind of affect me in a negative way. I think I was a little more depressed at home. I was by myself and constantly feeling everything I was going through, and thinking about stuff that wasn't always positive. So I decided that the best thing would be to go back to work and just talk to my boss and try to fix what I couldn't handle there.

My Boss was mad at me at first because I took the leave without giving any prior notice, but after we talked she was very understanding and ended up hiring an assistant for me which was so great, and has helped me out so much. I have been back at work for 2 weeks now. And I think it has helped me out a lot, both financially and emotionally. I am a lot more tired physically now. But being at work has distracted me from constantly being aware of all the symptoms and little aches and pains that we go through. I also feel like it makes the time go faster. I am already trying as hard as I can to be patient and just keep being in treatment, and it feels like it will take forever to get better. But being at work helps me feel rewarded for doing a good job, and not focusing on when I am going to get better. So it is a great thing for me to be back now.

And since my last appointment which was  2 1/2 weeks ago, I have been doing so much better. I haven't really had urethra burning, only very little at night which is hardly noticable. My period was very light, and hardly any cramping. Although I still have anxiety it is much better than last month. I still feel it but I can handle it a lot better.

There have been a lot of improvements which I am grateful for, and I know there will be more improvements to come.

I still want to share a little of what I have been dealing with because when I read other posts that share symptoms similar to mine, I feel relieved to know that what I am going through is normal. This is not everything, because I don't want it to be overwhelming but this is some.

So the past 3 weeks, I have been dealing with some crazy hip, and leg pain. It feels like a muscle spasm/cramp in my hips sometimes they crack, and feel like they are out of place. At night my legs and feet hurt really bad. I have to massage them to soothe them. Sometimes I will sit in a hot bath because that really relaxes them. I have also got some upper, mid back pain that happened for a week straight but then that calmed down.

My colon has been very sensitive this month, especially at night. I just feel it lightly ache during the day then at night it burns. I don't think I am sleeping very well because every morning I have been waking up exhausted as if I had run 10 miles the night before.

I have a lot of acne on  my face, back, and some on my bottom. My hair falls out a little when I blow dry it. My focus is really bad, I feel foggy, and always forget what I was thinking about or what I was going to do. I'm always tired, and I have to push myself to do everything.

But I know all of this is normal die off, from what Dr. B tells me, and from searching here on prior posts. I am just hoping every month for more improvements. And I have been getting them. I am on list 3 which is absolutely wonderful! I can make so many different recipes, it is great. I am so happy to be in this treatment, and wouldn't have it any other way. I was doing, and feeling way worse before I started this treatment, and I had a lot of negative side effects from the western medicine I was taking. I am proud for doing a natural treatment, and I know I am going to heal and get better. Which has been my dream for the past 8 years. I am so grateful for an understanding job, so I can have a flexible schedule, but still be financially stable to cover the costs of this treatment.