Checking in after a month hiatus

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Hi ladies,

I hope that you are feeling well.  I have been away for about a month on this blog, not by choice but because work has kept me too busy and extremely long hours, unfortunately. I figured I would check in and see how you are feeling?  I see there are a few new to the site.  Welcome!  My journey started Oct 7, 2011 and so I'm close to 5 months of treatment.  Stilll a newbie but alot has happened.  The past month has been up and down in terms of my insomnia.  To be honest, its been HELL but somehow, I seem to make it through the day not too exhausted and mentally focused.  I have been only sleeping about 4-5 hours/night.  This is hard.  Yes, I still have the occaisonal anxiety attacks but Dr. B has been right there even when I've emailed her at 2am panicking and having a hard time shutting my brain down.  Really, part of it is due to me looking for a new job and so I've been unable to relax.  What does that word mean, RELAX?  I am still struggling with this... can you any advice please on how you cope.  I'm also struggling with STRESS.

In terms of IC, it has slowly gotten better.  I have not had a flareup since early December?  I cant recall.  This is wonderful and it can also happen to those that are new here.  Its hard to believe but part of this journey for me has been to believe in her treatment and believe in yourself.  For me, it also has been believing in God.  Has has a plan for me, that for what I go through, I am now seeing why.  It is testing my strengths but I am more at peace.  I have a long way to go!  But I am alive, my moods are getting better, my periods are normal (and for this,, I thought it would take much longer since I'm still very new).  My migraines are minimal.  Hooray!  This has been a challenge for a LONG time.  When they do happen, I stil panic but its been getting beter. 

I still struggle alot with pssioriassis, super cold feet, cold hands, dry skin/scalp/hair (I have to use a hot water bottle to keep warm at night for me cold feet).  I'm scared to even try sex as the pain I know can be excruciating and cause a flareup.  I'm just not mentally ready but Dr B assures me that I will get there. 

Anyhow, I guess one of my biggest challenges is balancing my life and living with IC.  I guess I just wanted to share that there is HOPE.  I have been there for the darkest of nights and feelings of despair.  I dont get it that often but understand what its like. 

One, day, I hope to post my success story (I have been keeping a daily journal on symptoms/progress/set backs), but there is more in this journey back to health that I need to get through.  I wish you peace and hope.

 

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I'm sorry that I didnt get a chance to reply.  Work, work and more work.  UGH.  boring but its consuming my life which means stress (this week, not as much as last week thankfully).  Thanks for getting me your feedback.  How are you doing?  How are you feeling these days?  I have to share this new update and I hope that I dont jinx myself but to me this is a huge step in getting healthier.  So a few days ago, the itchiness came back in my vagina.  It hadnt since mid Jan?  so I thought, here I go again.  This time, I decided to ride out this wave and lo and behold, it went away without me having to ask Dr. B to adjust my herbs.  This is SO incredibly exciting for me because its truly showing me that her protocol IS WORKING!  Again, I pray that I didnt jinx myself.  I think I'm ready to try new foods (I like to try them on the weekends so I dont flare at work) So I'm going to try raspeberries (list 3).  I cannot wait!  anyhow, I didnt want to keep you hanging (I'm sorry).  Between work, looking for a new job/had a 3rd round interview at an AMAZING company a few days ago, being a mom, I just havent had any personal time to log in.  Keep me posted on your progress PLEASE.  You and Deir are why I'm here and HEALING.  I recall you ladies convincing me to take the plunge to move in my appt date and for that, I'm so very grateful.  XOXO.