Dearest Icama members, 

First of all I want to say how wonderful everyone is and how incredibly helpful this site is. so grateful! You are all so helpful I decided to be transparent today to hear perhaps some feedback about my concern about stress inhibiting my body and my progress.

My stress is pretty intense on a daily basis. I have to start investigating how stress affects my progress. I know that Matia blogged about it from previous posts about how some people heal without ever changing or even looking at themselves so I run hope on that. although I couldnt find that great Post from her in the archives? I'm a little worried about my stress levels to tell you the truth. At times, I wonder if adrenaline and cortisol is what got me here in the first place because its so acid forming and poisonous to our bodies? I run a very intense schedule as I have my own practice, I have a 21 month old, a 7 year old, and all sorts of things my husband and I (mostly me) are trying to restructure. I used to do African dance which was a big outlet for me but now understandably Boaz advises exercise without exertion and in hindsight, it did upset my bladder afterwards. I'm in what seems to be a fight or flight pattern that really got triggered by this bladder syndrome, or perhaps my fight or flight triggered the baldder syndrome? Now I feel I am in the right hands  with Boaz with no doubt (thank goodness!) but I wonder how to get out of this stress spin and how much it will impede my progress here? I plan on mentioning it to Boaz this week. My son stopped breast feeding about a month and a half ago so hopefully my hormones will stabilize but just thought to get a blog stream going to hear thoughts on this because I am feeling down about it. Meditating is not for me. Movement at the gym is although I havent gone since my son was born. I feel stress stream through my body. First thing in the morning, I just feel adrenaline start even before I get up. Its like theres a tiger in the room. I really want change here. I am in the peak of my research as well so it won't end until next summer. 

Would love thoughts and feedback. Thank you so much for reading!

Carey