Should I do 30 posts in 30 days? To continue, we used to do this with "pitches" in OA when we were trying to nail together some food sobriety. Now I am trying to nail together some mental sobriety. I am trying to keep the faith about my knees but it has been 6 months and no obvious improvement. Today I made a lsit for myself of what I was supposed to do in addition to being at work and being a functional human being. The list went:
1) Listen to Tara Brach (www.tarabrach.com) Buddhist infomred on line philosophy that helps to deal with suffering. Result: Did not do this, did not take a break at work, an old habit.
2. Remember that helaing is not linear and it snuck up on me with my bladder. Result: Did not do this. Got scared and freaked out and surfed the ICAMA site and thought of other people I could call to get "advice" about my problem.
3. Told myself that I could have a lot of control over my interactions with people to make them positive and "build on those sparks" to try to get into a happier place.
4. Told myself that I would make a list of all the ways that I had imnproved. Result: I did make the list. It said" 1) big progress in the bladder department in one year- from List 2-5, 2) Food allergies gone. 3) urogential tissue health almost normal. 4) Most Gi issues (acid reflux and constipation gone.)Still some bloating but very manageable.5) off of all prescription drugs (5) except one, synthroid. 6) Off digestive enzymes and magnesium. 6) Did well on portions the last few days. (having to really watch weight due to so much sitting.)
THsi has been a therapeutic exercise. My one other symptom besides knees that really needs work is head. i still tend to catastrophize and take the negative view without even realizing that I am slipping into it. I am always looking to others for reassurance whenr eally, the toll of self-reflection has allowed me to see that today I slipped into thinking that my knees are never going to get better and that I am getting heavier and heavier. Neither statement is necesarily true, I realize as I write. Thanks for listening I need to talk back to those voices.
I too need to do more self-reflection to help me stay positive. I have this wonderful opportunity to heal so I will follow suit and list my improvements I have had over the past 22 months 1)haven't had an ocular migraine in 3 months 2) given the okay to add goat yogurt a huge gain since still eating from a limited list 1 and 2 veggies from list 2 3)only waking with shearing pains 3-4x/month compared to nightly 4) waking only 1-2x/night to pee 5)can now make it more than 30 minutes before my bladder feels like it is going to burst, can sometimes go an hour to hour and a half without peeing 6)liver enzymes and kidney function improving 7)itching and vulvodynia less intense and not constant 8) for the first time ever in my life had 4 periods in a row, pain still horrific, but huge for me!
Very slow progress, and still a long way to go, but improvements none the less!:) Thanks Bonnie for sharing, you have had great progress and hopefully the knees will follow suit very soon! Hang in there!
Bonnie, 30 posts in 30 days sounds like a fantastic idea! Its so good to hear of all of your improvements, those are huge. I'm sorry you are still stuck in the knee pain phase, but its only that.. a phase. It will pass :) Lots of love and hugs to you.
YES! You should!
I empathize SO much with you. You have seen so many improvements, my god! What hope that gives me, I am a serious acid reflux sufferer so I am glad you have managed to get rid of that.
It can be frustrating because getting better is pretty much a full time job, and I feel like our culture is very much an instant gratification culture... we want results FAST. We don't know how to wait or to accept pain as a transient part of life. I am struggling with this a lot and trying to retrain my brain... like you!
Because you know Tara Brach, maybe you will like this... maybe I've already posted this, but anyway, I live in Maryland so I have been down to her dharma talks a few times.
The first one I went to was the most memorable. She told this story:
A elderly Native American man is talking to his grandson he says,
"There is a war inside of my head. It's a war that goes on inside of us all."
The grandson asks, "who is fighting the war grandpa?"
"Two hungry wolves are at war with one another inside of my head. One wolf is angry, unkind, impatient, greedy, negative, sad and delusional. He represents all of those parts of me that bring me down and that keep me from reaching my full potential. The other wolf is kind, gentle, compassionate, joyful, positive and wise... but he is just as hungry as his counterpart"
The grandson asks, "which of the hungry wolves will win the war?"
The grandfather replies simply, "why, whichever I choose to feed."
Keep feeding the joyful and positive wolf! Every moment of every day feed that positive energy. I'll be trying to do the same :)
You have healed so much, inspired so many, and proven your strength already. You don't have to prove anything more to yourself, you've already embarked on a difficult path and you're half way there (if not more), keep going AND KEEP US POSTED IN 30 days, and then another 30 days!
oh, or 30 each day, or whatever it is... I totally misunderstood apparently. BUT SO MANY GOOD IDEAS! GO WITH IT RUN WITH IT LADY! RUUUUN WITH THAT EXCELLENT IDEA THAT I MISUNDERSTOOD! Imagine those knees running with that GREAT idea :)
Should I do 30 posts in 30
Should I do 30 posts in 30 days? To continue, we used to do this with "pitches" in OA when we were trying to nail together some food sobriety. Now I am trying to nail together some mental sobriety. I am trying to keep the faith about my knees but it has been 6 months and no obvious improvement. Today I made a lsit for myself of what I was supposed to do in addition to being at work and being a functional human being. The list went:
1) Listen to Tara Brach (www.tarabrach.com) Buddhist infomred on line philosophy that helps to deal with suffering. Result: Did not do this, did not take a break at work, an old habit.
2. Remember that helaing is not linear and it snuck up on me with my bladder. Result: Did not do this. Got scared and freaked out and surfed the ICAMA site and thought of other people I could call to get "advice" about my problem.
3. Told myself that I could have a lot of control over my interactions with people to make them positive and "build on those sparks" to try to get into a happier place.
4. Told myself that I would make a list of all the ways that I had imnproved. Result: I did make the list. It said" 1) big progress in the bladder department in one year- from List 2-5, 2) Food allergies gone. 3) urogential tissue health almost normal. 4) Most Gi issues (acid reflux and constipation gone.)Still some bloating but very manageable.5) off of all prescription drugs (5) except one, synthroid. 6) Off digestive enzymes and magnesium. 6) Did well on portions the last few days. (having to really watch weight due to so much sitting.)
THsi has been a therapeutic exercise. My one other symptom besides knees that really needs work is head. i still tend to catastrophize and take the negative view without even realizing that I am slipping into it. I am always looking to others for reassurance whenr eally, the toll of self-reflection has allowed me to see that today I slipped into thinking that my knees are never going to get better and that I am getting heavier and heavier. Neither statement is necesarily true, I realize as I write. Thanks for listening I need to talk back to those voices.
I too need to do more self
I too need to do more self-reflection to help me stay positive. I have this wonderful opportunity to heal so I will follow suit and list my improvements I have had over the past 22 months 1)haven't had an ocular migraine in 3 months 2) given the okay to add goat yogurt a huge gain since still eating from a limited list 1 and 2 veggies from list 2 3)only waking with shearing pains 3-4x/month compared to nightly 4) waking only 1-2x/night to pee 5)can now make it more than 30 minutes before my bladder feels like it is going to burst, can sometimes go an hour to hour and a half without peeing 6)liver enzymes and kidney function improving 7)itching and vulvodynia less intense and not constant 8) for the first time ever in my life had 4 periods in a row, pain still horrific, but huge for me!
Very slow progress, and still a long way to go, but improvements none the less!:) Thanks Bonnie for sharing, you have had great progress and hopefully the knees will follow suit very soon! Hang in there!
Great to hear of the
Great to hear of the improvements! All a big deal,,,
Great to hear of the
Great to hear of the improvements! All a big deal,,,
Bonnie, 30 posts in 30 days
Bonnie, 30 posts in 30 days sounds like a fantastic idea! Its so good to hear of all of your improvements, those are huge. I'm sorry you are still stuck in the knee pain phase, but its only that.. a phase. It will pass :) Lots of love and hugs to you.
YES! You should!
YES! You should!
I empathize SO much with you. You have seen so many improvements, my god! What hope that gives me, I am a serious acid reflux sufferer so I am glad you have managed to get rid of that.
It can be frustrating because getting better is pretty much a full time job, and I feel like our culture is very much an instant gratification culture... we want results FAST. We don't know how to wait or to accept pain as a transient part of life. I am struggling with this a lot and trying to retrain my brain... like you!
Because you know Tara Brach, maybe you will like this... maybe I've already posted this, but anyway, I live in Maryland so I have been down to her dharma talks a few times.
The first one I went to was the most memorable. She told this story:
A elderly Native American man is talking to his grandson he says,
"There is a war inside of my head. It's a war that goes on inside of us all."
The grandson asks, "who is fighting the war grandpa?"
"Two hungry wolves are at war with one another inside of my head. One wolf is angry, unkind, impatient, greedy, negative, sad and delusional. He represents all of those parts of me that bring me down and that keep me from reaching my full potential. The other wolf is kind, gentle, compassionate, joyful, positive and wise... but he is just as hungry as his counterpart"
The grandson asks, "which of the hungry wolves will win the war?"
The grandfather replies simply, "why, whichever I choose to feed."
Keep feeding the joyful and positive wolf! Every moment of every day feed that positive energy. I'll be trying to do the same :)
You have healed so much, inspired so many, and proven your strength already. You don't have to prove anything more to yourself, you've already embarked on a difficult path and you're half way there (if not more), keep going AND KEEP US POSTED IN 30 days, and then another 30 days!
Love
Hannah
oh, or 30 each day, or
oh, or 30 each day, or whatever it is... I totally misunderstood apparently. BUT SO MANY GOOD IDEAS! GO WITH IT RUN WITH IT LADY! RUUUUN WITH THAT EXCELLENT IDEA THAT I MISUNDERSTOOD! Imagine those knees running with that GREAT idea :)