New patient feeling scared by others' lack of progress

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Hi Guys

I really hope people do not feel funny about me emailing this, but reading how some people are no better at all after 6 months has made me feel awful. I am due to fly out to see Matia from the UK for an appointment on 2nd December and will still go because I have booked my flights etc... which has cost me a small fortune, but it concerns me that I might be the same as others who have seen no progress for months on end.

This is not a dig at anyone who has previously posted by the way - just want to find out what to expect from the treatment. I don't expect to be better in a specific timeframe. I know that the disease is way to complicated for anybody to put a time on recovery, but I guess I just need some encouragement at this stage to hear that some other people feel they have made some progress within the first year of treatment.

Sorry to bother you all with my caution - I am generally quite relaxed about things but I have developed some anxiety over the past couple of nights after reading some posts.

Best wishes to you all and I hope those of you who are not seeing the progress you desire that you do so soon - everyone deserves to get better and feel they are heading in the right direction.

xx

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deir

I should seriously stop posting!
 
So so many people have huge improvements in the first few months. I am jealous of all the people who have made huge improvements. Asume you will be one of the many and not like me! I want to remind everyone that I have mild IC. I go out about my life relatively normally so I really htink if I had been worse to start out I'd see bigger improvements. I used the analogy of weight loss- people who are 300lbs and go on a slight diet lose a lot of weight but when youare 130 and want to lose 5- it is really hard.I have some things that are great- my skin is clear, my periods are every 28 days which is HUGE for me so I know there is healing going on but I am just disappointed that I;m not where I thought I'dbe- but what do i know? I also have a lot of stress with 3 kids daily and can never catch a break.
 
YOu are doing the right thing and please don't use my whining as a barometer of the average results of this treatment. BY the way-I would have felt the exact sme way after reading my posts so I don't blame you for being anxious. I really worried about posting my fears. Just read the things that poele wrote to me and that should help you. It helped me.
 
Good luck with your trip and don't second guess for a second. My name is Deirdre which means" Sorrow" in Gaelic (thanks Mom)so don't assume  you'll share my luck. LOL

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calieve

Hi Poppy,
Everyone is soooo different. I started treatment only a month and a half ago on 09/15/2011, and already I am sooooooo much better. My Urethra burning went from fluctuating between a 5-8 on a daily basis. And as soon as I started treatment it went down, fluctuating between 3-5. Now for the past 3 weeks, the only urethra pain it is only between a 2-4 and it only happens if I have cheated on the diet or stressed out to much about something, or if I have to much physical activity for the day.
 
I moved to diet list 2 after only 3 weeks of treatment. I haven't yet tried everything on list 2 yet just because I feel so good and don't want to risk it.
 
All I can say is everyone is different and everyone will respond differently to treatment. For me, I always try to stay positive and read positive posts on this website. Sometimes, I cannot read some of the negative posts because it starts bringing me to a negative place. Other people on here can handle it, and help those that need to vent. And it is nice, sometimes you need to vent and have people help you that understand.
 
It also really helped me to go through all of Matia Brizman's posts. She posts a lot of positive stuff. She also posts stuff about how some people can get better in a year, and for others it might take 3-4 years. It's hard but you will learn so much stuff while you go through this process.
 
I can honestly say that finding Dr. Brizman has been a miracle for me, there are so many signs that I am getting better. And it is happening so fast for me. I already have a much better sex life, it feels so much better now. And I am not tensing up with pain everyday.
 
Look for the positive posts on this website, I think that is what you need in the beginning of treatment. Then later when you get to a better place physically and emotionally, then you can start helping others that need to vent. We are all here to help each get better. Some people just need to vent, but in the beginning of treatment you won't be able to help them, so maybe it is just better if you don't read those posts until later.
 
Good luck with your treatment I hope you are going to get better fast. I am glad you have already done the first step and made your appointment and booked your flight.
 
 

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SarahC

Hey there,
 
firstly, deir, do NOT stop posting! I would be very upset if you did :( ;)
 
Secondly, Poppy, I'm a UK patient too and started treatment in May. Things go up and down, but I have had really good stretches (the last one was nearly two weeks) where I feel minimal to no symptoms. Last month I had eight days that I classified as symptom-free. That's definite progress for me. I've had a bit of a crappy week, but when I try to be objective about it (so hard, as you know) I can see that my bad weeks are much better than they were. Today, for example, was a "medium" day, I'd say - but what that meant was that I had some tenderness around my urethra and clitoris - and that's been it. And I had a couple of hours in the morning and another couple in the afternoon where I felt basically asymptomatic. The real struggle for me now is the mental one - I find myself getting very stressed and despondent if I feel much in the way of symptoms at all. Talked to Dr B about it at my last appt, and she said that it's normal, the illness has a PTSD aspect to it, and I'll feel better when I feel physically better! actually, I'm looking into therapy to help tackle it, but I take her point ;)
 
I guess my point here is that the battles I'm going through with treatment aren't the ones I expected. I can get on with my life, work and deal with my son and all the other daily business, and often I don't have pain (and my frequency is now normal, and I only ever have the faintest urgency, which actually has improved still further in the last month, I think). But I now feel borderline phobic about ANY sensation (and I would classify what I have now as sensation, rather than pain - tickling/itching/niggling) in my pelvic area, and just feel exhausted at FEELING things. So much of what I'm tackling now is the fear of illness rather than the illness itself - the fear that it won't ever fully leave, and that I'll be coping with the niggles and the anxiety they induce forever. So what I'm saying (longwindedly) is - treatment is complex. You can feel better in some ways and worse in others. Symptoms can shift and change, and the timescale is different for everyone. Try if you can to go into it with a positive but open mind. You won't regret going, I can absolutely promise you that. And there are a bunch of us in the UK so we can all support each other!

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fahlmank

Hi Poppy,
Sarah, I agree with you wholeheartedly! I find myself battling the emotions of this disease more than they physical ailments. 
I begun the diet in May 2011 and have only been working with Dr.B for 12 weeks. In that time she has helped me 
-sleep through the night
-have more energy
-I am on day 12 (but whose counting) of bladder stability where sometimes I feel nothing and other times a small flare.
- I am on list 3 of the diet and feel very satisfied with what I am able to eat. 
- have a network to RELY on!
As far as the heart issues I have experienced, they are very atypical and may not have anything to with my IC so do not be discouraged. Each of us goes about this our own way. At the end of the day.... we will get better!
I go about my life normally and that is because of the work I am doing here so do NOT regret your decision. It is a good one.
Katie

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Christine222

Hi Poppy, I have been in treatment since early May. I have seen slow but steady progress. I am on List 3 and can try things on List 4. Most days my bladder discomfort is a 1 -2. I never go above a 3 anymore and I would only be that bad if I really cheated. I have had stretches of a week too with having basically no symptoms. Don't worry, you will get better and even if it takes longer then 6 months know that it will happen, don't worry!

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SarahC

woo Katie day 12!! that is brilliant!

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fahlmank

Thanks, Sarah! I had to put that little "brag" in there. I am pretty excited;)
Hope you are well!

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Poppy

Firstly, I would like to say thanks to everyone for the response and kind words of encouragement. It has put my mind at rest.
Also, I would like to say to Deirdre - never stop posting. We all need somewhere we can share out thoughts and fears amongst a community of people who truly understand. I a bizarre way, it also helps to know that things might not go exactly as we wish - it helps prepare us new comers for the 'journey' in a sense that we should go in with a complete open mind. In many ways we are similar - I too have a fairly mild version of IC, although I am in a very painful flare at the moment and have been for two weeks! I also have a young child and run a business and so I totally understand what it is like trying to function daily even if the pain isn't a 10! I truly believe you will get better though like all the other ladies here. I spoke with another woman last night (a UK patient) who said she felt no improvement for 8 months and suddenly, out of the blue, she started to feel progress rapidly and was better within 14 months!! Hopefully, this will happen for you.
To everyone else who posted a response - I completely agree with you all. The emotional impact is very difficult to deal with. I have sought help on that with a kineisiologist here in the UK and feel a lot better for having that support. I am also going to see a pain counsellor through our National Health Service here too. Somebody to talk to on a monthly basis who doesn't see you each day will be able to see the subtle differences in your mental and physical state and will provide encouragement; at least, that's how I feel.
Btw, I plan on pulling together a recipe book for the various lists, which I will post on the website as I go through the stages - I guess the chapters will be easy to name - 'List 1' and so forth!!!
All the best ladies - I keep you all in my thoughts as we go through this process together.
Hugs
Poppy xx