I am so excited and i know I am on the right  path but I also insanely anxious. I have to leave my kids (including my nursing baby) The whole trip planning part has me so stressed. What do I eat? Where do I pump (breasts)? I am definitely a mild case compared to most of what I have read and yet these past 3 months + have been the worst most emotionally taxing time pf my life.

Several people (doctors, alternative and regular) have made the icomment that I must be holding in some anger. this thought is really upsetting me and frankly making me ..angry! I do have a tendency towards angry outbursts particularly while stressed or during PMS ( which I think is all related to the gut anyway) but I also cope mostly great. even through this whole hell, I;ve been taking care of my kids and pretty much going about my business. Yesterday, a chiropractor suggested I had unresolved anger from my father and he kind of implied that Dr B couldn't heal me if i had that stuck. this is an idea that i really hate. I have a loving, involved dad who was and is a raging alcoholic. I have had a lot of anger towards him in the past but now I have compassion and understanding. it makes me upset to think that maybe i haven't really dealt with it and it is all just lurking there causing me this chronic illness. Last night I had a huge fight with my dear husband and this am I was yelling at my kids so now I think this idea is starting to be self perpetuating. I have a hair trigger temper right now because  I haven't felt normal since jan 15.

Anyway- I guess I needed to get this out. I feel like dr Brizman will address all my issues and I know I am headed in teh right direction.