I'm so sorry for being depressing but I know that I'm not getting better At all and it's been 8 months of nothing

At the start of treatment I improved some, then after taking some medication for my back for7 days everything got a hundred times worse. Its been 4 months since I took that medication and I continue to get worse each day. I now have level ten vulvodynia everyday, which I didn't have before treatment, I can't sit, my bladder hurts more than it did before treatment. I now have urgency and frequency which I didn't have before. We change the herbs three times a week and nothing changes. I had a double gum infection over Christmas, I may have a uti and I only tolerate 4 foods at the moment. This truly isn't living and nothing ever improves. I go to physio for my back, take the herbs, don't cheat, treat my gums do everything I can and nothing ever gets better. Its seems that everyone heals apart from me. I don't understand when I'm trying so so hard. Today my physiotherapist felt my pelvis is worsening despite all the back exercises I do even though I can barely stand. My gums are bleeding and sore. I just don't understand how one life can have so much bad in it.