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Hi all, Happy New Year.
So to start off 2010 I decided I would go to a therapist to try to deal with my emotions and some childhood stuff I'd gone through involving parents, divorce, deaths, etc....
I've been in treatment for 8 months now and just haven't been progressing as I'd like. It was suggested to me that my final piece of my healing puzzle is emotional and I need to get this stuff out that has been buried deep for so many years. I tried meditating and am still doing that but it wasn't going too far. So, I went for my first therapy session yesterday and after just one hour of talking about my mom (and trying not to cry--herein lies my problem) I had major bladder pain and burning upon leaving and cried the whole drive home. I went for a walk later on and cried. I went to bed and read my journal I had kept about some stuff and cried and cried. This is good, right!?!? I'm thrilled that stuff is coming out but my bladder feels worse than ever! Matia just changed up my protocol to try to get this burning under control and now it's gotten even worse by me going to the therapist. But I do believe this is a good thing in the long run. Anyone have experience with this or is anyone in therapy and think it's really helping them more than the diet and herbs?
For me my therapy has been
For me my therapy has been helpful because it gives me an outlet so I don't repress more junk. You might try some affermation type healing with Hay house. Also the Kelly Howell Attract love, fulfill your hearts desire,Realese Guilt, Positive thinking and the healing meditation.
Emotional die off is also very common remember to cut yourself some slack and forgive yourself. These things take time. I think what your doing is a good thing and hopefully once you let go of the old you can move forward. You have to truly forgive yourself and everyone.
the emotional side
I think it is fantastic you are going to see someone to talk about things to start off 2010! I myself have been needing to do this as well, but haven't yet found the courage (or money!) to see a therapist. I truly believe that emotional issues/the past can play a huge role in illness. I think the main source of my getting sick was exactly that, and I know in order to heal completely I have to be at peace with many traumatic events and much hurt/abandonment and really forgive everyone for my own healing. I just bought the meditation healing cd and it's quite amazing. I can't stay awake for the whole thing yet ( i am out cold within a half hour..haha!) but it can really relax you and put your mind in a good place. I think as soon as you make a conscious decision to deal with past issues you are headed in the right direction and it can only get better! As issues move up and out hopefully the pain will too! I know I definitely flare when emotional issues come up, whether past or present and it can be very painful. I wish you all the luck with this and hope that you can heal and find inner peace. I think it is this key factor that will prevent the return of issues like IC. you are doing a great thing.
healing medetation CD
I don't think it matters that you sleep it is still working in your subconsience level. I wouldn't force yourself to stay awake as long as you do some of the breath work in the begining of it. I will put it on when i first wake up as well because I wake up from pain and it helps me to start my day. I get that extra time i need since I don't feel rested when i first wake up. I find if i start with the healing med that it gives me that extra time my body and brain need to rest and recover i didn't get, then I can start the day. I wish Kelly would make one just for us ICers. I did write to her. I may try to contact her again. I am glad it is working out for you. I actually just had to quit therapy for money reasons. I need to save some cash so I can open my biz things aren't going well for me but thats a whole other topic so I will not get into that.
Nicole
flygirlsam
YES, I've been in therapy this time around in treatment, and also first time around in treatment years ago. My IC helped me remember some childhood sexual abuse and now I see that my IC directly relates to that (specifically abuse when I was an infant). So, I know that I've been dealing with the many layers around dealing with that issue, plus a lot of other childhood issues from growing up in an alcoholic and crazy family, and with an unavailable alcoholic mother. I do find that when I work on heavy stuff, I feel my bladder responding to that. I get flares when I'm really stirring up the emotions.