So sad and exhausted

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Every time I think I'm getting better something else pops up. Since I started my period, I have been having pain in my lower left side that feels like pressure on my bladder. I am so sad and scared. Why can't the symptoms just subside. Why does it always have to be something different that is torture to deal with. My mind races about what it could be - colon, ovary, kidney, hernia? I need help but there is no one to help me. I hate crying every day.  I'm scared to eat. I need to work. Please God, help all of us. Please heal us.

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DLFox123

Pain in lower left side is pretty common - that's a bend in the intestine on their way out - I get that quite a bit.  I also get terror.  At the moment I'm struggling with some pretty fierce fears.  I'm with you - Please God, help all of us.  Please heal us.
Hugs

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me

Thank you for responding. I keep thinking I'm getting worse, and I don't know what to do. I am so miserable with my mind? I need to be healthy and strong so I can face life. Please God, hear my praye for all who are suffering from this. Help us find a way out. 

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kineasy

This is such a challengeing condition and i semd love out to all dealing with this and trying to get better. I just had a moment of tears, stretched out on my lounge room floor, my god soes the sadness ever end. I've been crying alot lately. I hope you have good support in your life you need it and deserve it.
I've been reflecting alot lately on my life and this condition, how entertwined it is not just in my life, but in my life as a woman, i'm currently in my first trimester of pregnacy and dealing with some nasty bladder pain and i feel stripped of my woman hood, of my basic right to enjoy and feel safe during my pregnancy. I've been grieving these last months for my life, i never realised just how deeply it has wounded me.
Trying to stay strong is hard and i read it so much on this forum, how hard it is for everyone in thier mind. I think that is one of the hardest parts, the roller coaster between hope and fear.
 
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you.
A xx

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me

I have been begging my mother to let me come home this morning, but she just says she's sending the police to have me taken to a hospital. I'm not going back in a hospital, where I was for a week recently. It's pointless. I wish my family would let me come home and live with them, but we all need money don't we. The world revolves around money and the sick are screwed. I have been going through so much lately with changing symptoms. I'm not sure I can go on much longer or even today. 

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DLFox123

If you go to the hospital - can they help you with anti-anxiety meds? While I know it doesn't "cure" this god awful disease, if this is your only option, other than suicide, please let them help you.

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me

The meds have bad side effects for me. Cause terrible spasms. Nothing can help me.

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blondy

If would be nice if the hospital helped, wouldn't it? One week in the hospital and you're as good as new. I do support hospital stay though if you're out of your mind or lost hope, so you can calm down.
 

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kineasy

Please ask someone for help, maybe a stay in hospital with some pain medication, might not be a bad idea. Have you talked to Matia, maybe she can advise you of something safe to do.
 
Thinking of you
A x