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Yes- my kids drive me crazy sometimes which I know is normal but on Sunday and today- I CAN NOT take it! They have off today so everyone is here.It is kind of scary- like I feel like- if I don't get out of here- I am going to lose it. Normal "bad" things that would make any Mom mad are making me ballistic. I feel like something is going on and it isn't PMS which is usually to blame for all of my out of ordinary temper issues. This is like deep resentment and anger coming out at them. I definitely think my protocol is causing this because I don't feel like myself. Also- haven't felt good a for over a week so that starts getting to me but this is like- I am evil! Just told them to go upstairs and get away from me because I feel like everythign coming out my mouth is toxic.
Scary!!!
UGH I have FREQUENT bouts of
UGH I have FREQUENT bouts of rage with my kids. I know it is from treatment. I had it before treatment too. I think Bifido makes me really angry, or maybe SF. LOL Who the HECK knows? But most of us have issues with our liver, and the liver detox is always connected to anger and frustration. I try to give myself time outs, and you know, all the tricks that therapists give you. Also, my therapist said that sometimes parents lose it, but what is really important is how you repair what you did. I try to repair the best I can. Kids are resilient and you are giving them love. They will be ok. But BOY I get this. I often pray for Monday because my coping skills on the weekend are not great.
If we don't excel at health, the only other option is disease.
Hey Deir,
Hey Deir,
Everthing coming out of your mouth is probably toxic - die off toxic; quite possibly emotional die off? I'm not saying that means you can just run wild - which I know you won't do. I'm just saying that you might consider the source and be kind to yourself - thus helping you to be kind to the poor unsuspecting people around you. My therapist and I are working on having me stop in whatever emotional tail spin that I'm in, and try to be curious about it........REALLY can be hard to do in the heat of the moment. What I've found is that often times it's more about my past than my present.
Thanks. I hope it passes. We
Thanks. I hope it passes. We did get outside, skip ballet and go to a park, thathelped
Deir- I totally feel the same
Deir- I totally feel the same way at times. Before I had IC and felt this way I would go for a long 5 mile run with our dog and get all the rage out. Now since I am unable to run and get it out I feel like it bottles up and I almost explode. I can't wait for the day that I am able to run and get it all out in a positive way. Your not alone:)
Deir,
Deir,
I could have written your post. I am generally a reasonably mild-mannered, calm and non-angry person but the rage that I sometimes experience with my kids is something to behold (and makes me feel incredibly guilty). I put it down to perimenopause and children - I have never in my life got so angry with anyone or anything and it is well known that children push buttons that adults don't; but your theory regarding protocol is something for me to consider. It's an interesting point. I have often wondered why THE RAGE happens to me. I settled on being perimenopausal because I literally could think of no other explanation. Thanks for highlighting this possibility.
As an aside, if you are
As an aside, if you are looking for ways to deal with this, I have recently read that small children can't interpret signals and cues (body language) as well as adults, which may be one reason why they, from our perspective, push and push. I haven't tried this yet but one recommendation is to get a balloon and whenever you feel yourself getting angry, blow it up a little. You should blow the balloon up more and more to illustrate how you are feeling (and can even pop it if you are getting to THAT point). KIds tend to be more visual than adults. Might even work!
Thanks Vin!
Thanks Vin!
Dr B said it was more than likely related to my liver. I feel liek it is a combo of life management/liver. I lost it a bit today too- I had a few nights of bad flares and I sprained my wrist a few weeks ago and it is still annoying me so I think when i don't feel well, I am just so much less patient.But there is a definite difference sometimes and I htink it must have to do with the lIver and a physiological response. It makes me sad because this is the only time I get with these kids before they grow up but so many times, they make life more difficult. That breaks my heart to say. My level of IC is bad enough to be constantly bothering me but not bad enough that I don't stop doing everything I need to do if that makes sense. I do almost all the things a normal stay at home mom does, work part time etc.Not that I want to be worse, don't get me wrong but some days I think "How am I doing all of this?" But I do. I hope it gets easier some day. it has gotten easier from when I was first diagnosed but there are still so many tough days
Thanks for the support as usual