Take deep breaths Vin43. Focus on your recovery. U will be so glad that u made the journey to meet Matia.
 
I was nervous setting out on the journey too but I printed out the success stories and read them on the plane then reread them the night before my appt. I have just started writing my own success story and hopefully Matia will publish it in the new year.  You will get your life back like I have done and it will be a much healthier life. 

Oh honey- try to repeat "I am on the right track, I am healing" Try to enjoy your trip. It is beautiful in California and Matia is just so so smart and talented. YOU WILL BE OK!!

I'm sorry to hear you are in pain epecially if you are travelling from afar.  Dr. B can help you stablize once you see her and if you concentrate on that she will help you, you can get through this.  Be exciited to start this journey, she will help you.  If you are religious or spiritual, pray and this will help.  Do keep us posted on how your 1st appt goes.  We are all rooting for you!!

hi vin43,
i totally understand what you are going through.  when i went to see dr. b, i was in a EXCRUCIATING pain.  i couldn't think coherently because i was in so much pain.  i didn't care if people were watching me, if there were people in the garage.  i was thinking "how am i going do this!"  i had a severe mental attack.  i kept on telling myself..."it's life or death situation" to get my butt moving.  I was feeling so anxious and nervous being in a completely new environment..."where's the restroom?" "where's the entrance?"  "where's her office"....and i made it, it was one of the hardest thing i had to endure, but if i can do it, YOU CAN TOO!  i've been dr. b's patient for 2 1/2 months now and i'm going to say i had a very VERY awful pain last night, to a point where i wanted to call 911...in fact i couldn't go into work today.  This healing journey is not an easy one, but do i want to suffer everyday or live life...
one of the things i do to keep me on track, i read the success stories and picture myself being happy and sexy at the end!
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My pain was really bad when I first started too. I was crying everyday, I just wanted to have a life and my pain was making everything suck. I didn't know how long it would take to start feeling better, but even though it might feel like long in the beginning. It actually goes really fast. The first 2 weeks of treatment I did feel some relief but not much. Then after a month I started feeling better. My Husband and I joined a salsa dancing class. In the beginning it was hard because I had some pain, but it helped take my mind off it. The  2 months into treatment, I started feeling really good. I only had pain like 5 days out of the whole month. And the pain on those days was the highest a 4 out of 10.  I look forward to our Wednesday night salsa class. It makes me feel sexy, and it's the only exercise I get right now. Now I'm almost 3 months into treatment, and still doing good. I am so much happier with my life already. I still have bad days when I am ovulating or the few days leading up to my period, but I can still go to work and clean my house. It's not the kind of pain that restricts me to the couch. Also Dr.B changed my herbs a little, and everytime that happens my body takes a week or 2 to adjust, and sometimes symptoms increase. If that happens I just email her and she changes things to make me comfertable again.
 
The best thing that helps me when I feel emotional, or overwhelmed is to come on this website and read success stories. I always get teary eyed reading them because I know that I will be there one day, and that I will have a success story too. I am so excited for when I will be able to workout everyday, and do all the fun aerobic classes at the gym. 
 
This is an overwhelming and emotional journey. Good luck, and stay positive.