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Hey everyone my chest is so bad today. I haven't been able to walk all week. I know Matia tells me it;s my lymph well i can't get my lymph going if I can't even breath. THis is really bad i get up and I am light headed It hurts so bad i want to stab my chest to release the air. I am so tired of this. It's hard to eat and funtion I can't seem to do anything.
Nicole, I had very similar
Nicole, I had very similar symptoms when I had an uncontrolled anxiety. I am pretty sure it can also manifest itself this way. I had to think about EVERY breath, very disturbing, but it passes, just like everything else.
So much but not anxiety
I can tell the difference between anxiety and this. Matia has already told me it is my lymph system not working properly. It is definatly different. I try not to react to it as a matter of fact i am quite calm about it and my anxiety is much changed It is mostly hormonal and I get it acting up during my cycle. But this is painful and not provoked by anything. It wakes me up or keeps me up. I will be doing nothing and it just happens. Actually I was laughing during a movie and then the pain hit me in the chest and it hurts so bad. I know I just need to figure out a way to get moving. I think I might have to buy a walker how imbarrising to be 31 and need a walker. When it happens tho I get disorented and also my fibro has been so bad its like walking on shards. I know I need to move to make it better but when i move it gets worse kinda catch 22 going on here. Matia and I are having a hell of a time with the herbs trying to figure out something that works. We have just been going round and round. I am sure something will click eventually but man I am getting really depressed being in this house this long. I have to get out of here for the love of GOD I have to get out. It's like now that my mental state feels like I could challage my self just a little my physical state is like NO! I have lost all my local friends but one and the one only comes over to clean my house because i pay her so not really a friend we sit and talk after and heh she just dump trucks about how terrible her life is Like I really don't need that to be my olny friend besides my boyfriend. Now my boyfriend tells me this wonderful thing he wants to get married but I don't want to get married like this in this state. I want to enjoy it and be in a happy place. What a great man to want to marry me like this though that was the best feeling ever. It just makes me want to pull out of this even more but it's not a mental thing it is a physical thing so theres only so much i have control over. I hate this darn yeast it has really given me a run for my life. sorry about the dear diary post.