I found another great book. "Letting go of worry" by Dr. Linda Mintle. I found mine at Walmart. I have considered myself to be a person of great faith for many years. But just recently that has been tested.  I realized that I am holding certain fears back. Fears that I didn't have faith God could help me with.  I'm still afraid but working really hard to let them go to him and trust that he will help me be victorius in conquering them and not be held in bondage to them. God wants us to surrender all to him.  Every IC pain. Every die-off symptom. Every fear that we will never feel better.  I love each and every one of you on this forum. I pray for you and our doctors. We CAN still have joy in the midst of our crisis and know that God is always good. He can take our pain and use it for HIS good.  Hoping you all have a joyful day!!!!