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Just two months ago I sent out a response telling one of you to not give up...I truly meant that. I am now the one who needs some kind words. I started tratment with Dr. Brizman in Feb. of 2007 and had ups and downs for the first year. Many more better days than not. I was doing so well that I had perfect attendance at work for two years...I was feeling great. But now I am starting to feel sick again. I was starting on list 5 and I guess I just went overboard and started eating things I should not have eaten...mainly bread. I now have either a pinching/burning feeling in the urethra, or vaginal pain. My pubic area is also a little swollen. These are either new symptoms or ones that I had not not in a long time. I blame myself for not being more careful. I guess what I would like to know is how long it took for those of you who regressed after making great progress to feel better. Dr. Brizman has been very supportive but I hate to be emailing her so often. I have gone back to list 4 but still no great progress. I am not giving up. I would just like to know if any of you have felt bad for months before going back to being better. Thank you for understanding esaslinas
I am sorry to hear you have
I am sorry to hear you have backtracked. It sounds like you are human and decided to enjoy some food and that should be OK. Do not blame yourself... I would think what you are experiencing is a sign. This may sound crazy but if I were you I would go back up to list 1. Just for a few days and see if this helps. Be real strict. Also, talk to Matia. She is here for you and knows more then all of us on how to help. You will get back there.. think of how far you come. You will get through this bump and get back on track.. NO bread. question was it yeast free bread or just regular bread?Maybe M will have a better bread (SPELT, Kamut) suggestion? I eat Spelt breat by French Meadows every day. Toasted it is great. Again, you are human and do not beat yourself up for eating things that are off the list. You have been in treatment a long time.
Thanks for your suggestion.
Thanks for your suggestion. Although Dr. Brizman did not tell me to go that far back, I think going to at least list 2 for a while is a good idea. I was allowed to eat bread at restaurants, but i over-indulged. It is interesting to note that when I first started (I was put on list 3) I lost lots of weight. Now that I have restricted myself for the last month I have only lost 2 pounds. Matia once told me that when my weight stabilized that meant I was getting better. I hope she is right. I will start making the muffins from our recipe list. There is a lot of work to be done and I have to make myself strong again. Thanks again, esalinas
esalinas
I can understand this. Sorry for the new (or not) symptopms, hope they are not scary. I just wanted to tell you that don't blame yourself, whatever we are doing is hard, and no need to punish yourself for that. Just be strong and do your best, and when you cheat--don't overdo it, just replace with good food. I am aware you already know all these as you are on treatment longer than I am, but really do your best, and lift up your energy with being positive and persistent. I am telling these very sentences to myself right now as I am very very tired of this whole process. Really, mentaly it has been very overwhelming lately. I started to feel so good last month, I had so much energy and finally after 4 years I felt like I am going back that active+joyful me, but I guess it meant to be only one month as I had an animal bite, and Matia had to change my supplements. This was so strange as I could see how my energy levels dropped down within couple of days with supplement change, and as you said I don't want to email to Matia so often but things don't make sense and I get confused. I am upside down now, and really tired of this wavy life even though I am stronger, calmer, more comppasinate, more peaceful, less worrier than ever, of which I am so grateful and thankful. but of course there are times that I feel its pretty overwhelming. Ahhhhhhh. I am trying to understand the signs behind things happening to me, and wonder what animal bite means. I could see my own limits, and it felt so good to be so active, but may be I wasn't ready, or things that I am trying to do are not meant for me, dont really know.
Anyway, sorry for writing so much about my case, I just wanted to say (to you and myself) that "Don't give up" , even though you broke the rules, its fine--keep walking. I guess this process is like the way babies learn walking. They keep falling until they truly start walking, and they never give up, and there they are running at the end.
Feeling better
A big thank you goes out to those of you who encouraged me to move forward. Your very kind words and your understanding made me feel that I was not alone in this battle. My family is very understanding but it really takes someone who feels the pain to truly comprehend what is going on. I have actually had two fairly good days with only minimal symptoms. I know that I cannot take anything for granted...especially my health. Feeling well does not mean that I can go backwards; it means that I must move forward. Thanks friends, esalinas.
I hope you continue with the
I hope you continue with the good days and this is just a passing thing. (((Hug))))