I am having trouble with my anxiety. I need to be at home, but I am three hours away from my family and having to work to keep my insurance. I am so scared. I just cry all the time. I am begging someone to help me. I have tried to tell my family how bad off I am mentally. I try to read positive things, but then my symptoms change and I get scared again. I haven't been having any urgency, but today I came home and ate, and then I started feeling swelling in my rectum area and tiny little pains in my bladder area - something I usually don't feel, and it scared me.